Literally speaking a few days ago. Now, however, metaphorically (hold your horses – you’ll get to read about my scuba diving experience in a couple of days!).
I woke up this morning feeling kind of low. I could not put my finger on what it was: maybe the fact that I’d really enjoyed my four-day Open Water Diver course (it was almost like camp!) and now it was over and I was just back to, well, doing nothing. Nothing as in nothing to be taken seriously, nothing new and challenging. (EDIT: I guess traveling is all of those…?)
When traveling for a longer period of time, the weekdays lose their significance. This morning, however, when all of a sudden I realized it’s Saturday, it didn’t take long until feeling low was replaced by feeling sad.
At the end of July this year, right after I had left for Helsinki for my last four weeks of work, my brother proposed to his (then-)girlfriend. They’ve been together for as long as I can remember, so we were all super happy to get the news. Some said they’d been expecting it; after all, they’d just gotten the cutest little puppy, but I sure hadn’t. Most of the time I think I’m pretty good at reading into stuff, but as far as engagements and pregnancies are concerned, I suck, 100 percent. Maybe because I don’t have any personal experience of those, I don’t know, but it doesn’t really matter.
Today Saturday, October 22, marks the day when J & S will be celebrating their engagement together with all of their friends and family, and I won’t be there.
To me, family is super important. I guess I’ve always known it, but not until the past year have I become fully aware of it. Here, on the other side of the world (which actually doesn’t hold true as I’m only four timezones away) it’s struck me at a whole new level.
I miss my family, and I miss my friends.
The first month in Indonesia was okay, I guess I was in the honeymoon phase, but ever since I arrived in Thailand at the beginning of the month, slowly, but surely, the feeling of home-sickness has crept in on me. While the main reason I decided to write a blog was to avoid having to tell the same stories over and over again to everyone who’s wondering what I’ve been up to and where I’m at, a major drawback of it is that people actually check the blog whenever they want to know how I’m doing, which is the whole point of it, yes, I know, but you know what I mean? People don’t write me as much as I assume they would if I didn’t have a blog, which means I don’t talk to them as much.
And no, please don’t feel forced to write me now, at all, because that is not the point. However, in case you didn’t know: I miss you, I miss you a lot. Especially today. (I’d rather not even think of Christmas!)
Now. The weather here is super windy today, close to stormy, so going to the beach (even though most of the days are cloudy) is out of question. Instead I wanted to hike to one of the view points and see some of the island, but it looks like I’d be getting a complimentary shower on the way, so we’ll see about that.
If it wasn’t for the dark, we would not see the stars.
Lots of love and happiness to J & S on their special day. And to the rest of you, too, for that matter.